i feel like everything i do is done by sacrifice.
i have to do all this shit..

i had a 4 day weekend this week.. and i've been mostly working. doing shit .. having to be responsible for .. and when it comes to me going out for down time, it doesn't even happen because it gets messed up because something always happens ... and AHHHHHHHHHHHH bs man. idk, sometimes i'm second guessing myself if i want the stress that comes along with being a care provider or even a nurse. i mean i like helping people and all.. but idk the stress is getting to me. sad to say i'm not even up there yet.

i guess i'm a point of my life where everything feels so over-bearing and i just want to break loose sometimes. relax. chill. i try to make time for people, but it never works out. i feel like im going to loose people that way. :( effing lame.

ah, what evs ima stop before i cry my eyes out again.