Third wheel sucks

i feel like everyone hates me. or i'm just hating on people.

i have not been feeling it lately. mostly with schoo. school is hella chill but i mean .. my friends that im with on the regular there .. are like. idk how to say it. they leave me out since i feel like the third wheel.. wtf, i AM the third wheel. i feel like i'm just there for them to hang out. but now it seems like they're okay with hanging out with each other alone. i mean, i dnt really mind it yanoe. but then.. what the fuck was i? was i just there for you guys to get closer and then once the time was all right u guys would just kick me to the curb. ahhhhhhhhh, it just feels like that. they always have something to say to each other. the guy likes the girl so much that he would jump through hoops to just see her smile/ laugh. it's cute, but to a point. it has come to that point. really tho. so crazy.
idk what the heck. i don't know if i can trust saying anything to them anymore since it seems like they're so close that.. they would tell each other anything. damn. why me tho. i feel like it always happens like this. all the time. i've been used to get to something someone else wanted. and i'm just there and i become the friend.. but then i'm just pushed to the side. left behind yanoe.
idk.. maybe it's just me being hella dramatic but it feels like that. i don't say anything when we go eat lunch together or what not. just the simple, "oh hey, yea, i'm here too" shit.
i'm really letting this get to me. but it's true my friend said that i will crack, that i will not be able to take it. i really can't. my friend who likes the other friend hella caught me yesterday since he rode in my car.. he was asking what's up with me. what's going on.. i thought i was gunna crack and tell him how i felt about everything. but he assumed something so i just went along with the story he said. i mean it is partially the reason why.. but not the whole thing. and it's whack, cuz if he told her.. what i said. then that explains why she doesn't talk to me anymore. :/ WHACK. see idk if i can do it anymore. there's so much.. cuz they're hella cool ass people. but it's just problems..