Random babbles.

04.23.10

Honestly, sometimes.. i wish i didn't know things about others. especially when it comes in a point in our friendship where we are on that trust level.. people seem to like to pour out their hearts to me about.. personal things. haha. I mean it's nice since i get to know how they are on that level you know, and it gives me a sense of how they are about that.. But the thing is .. i hate thinking all of this. since i know i won't tell it, but like what my friend said. the other person will not tell you told their secret only if you yourself tell them on your own. ugh, i hate it.

Maybe i'm feeling this way since this week had a lot of the sharing.. i feel like i know a lot about people. and they hardly know me. well.. i know there's a select few that i've kinda opened up to. but i still got my wall up. just cuz .. i feel like it's too soon to tell them about things so personal. but yeah. it's getting there.

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04.24.10

i feel like i want to write down every little thing that happens in my mind. if i had an automatic blogger for just the things that were in my brain.. it would be endless.. but i wonder how that would be. so out of order. because i think of one thing that jst goes out on another tangent and then i'll be like what the heck, how did i get from that topic to this? it also happens when i talk to my friends. they're all talking about something so random and i go wait wait, how did we get to talking about this. haha, i blame myself, cuz i usually devert the topic. lol. i think a lot. forreal.

i wish i was more focused. i feel like i get distracted a lot. ADD forreal. but i mean when i have to get something done than that's where my mind is at. maybe that's why late night assignments, and cramming seem to come often to me. and when i try to study ahead of time.. i tend to forget all the things i've studied. ha, maybe cuz it's not freshly embedded in my brain. ugh. that's so bad tho.