i don't see it as defeat,
i see it as,
i have to make

better
life
choices.

find what's right.
and go with it.

FINISH
what i've been set out to do
and kick ass at it.

i can't be boggled down
any longer.
i cannot think that tomorrow will come
when tomorrow is never promised
to any one.
no one.
carpe diem
seize the day.

for what it's worth.

so as i declare a drop.
i will rise from it.
i will pick up what i've left
to collect dust.
and swifter wipe
the shit out of it.

one day, i will stand tall.
and say, i did this for me.